There is a certain kind of peace found from being alone that you won’t find anywhere else.

I find myself looking at clock and feeling relieved that it is only 2:30 AM in the morning. It means there is more time to be alone and with my own thoughts. There is a stillness and brief period where nothing else matters except what I am focusing on.

If I am at work on a project or diligently zoned in on getting a task done than the hours will just fly by.

I also feel a sort of anxiety when thinking about anything or anyone who might disrupt my meditation. This level of focus seems to be the key to doing anything. It’s at this moment I can unlock my full creativity and find the answer to whatever problem I am looking for.

At the moment I am struggling with earning my first dollar online, and yet the answer seems to be so obviously set before me. It’s like I can just snap my fingers and things will start working, systems are built overnight, and suddenly there’s more money in my pocket than I can dream of.

But at the moment what seems to be stopping me is not being used to this solitude. For years I have had to wake up and be at a certain place, at a certain time and it’s led to me being unable to truly visualize and see into the depths of my plan. To go into the black void of my subconscious and pull out from the enigma the strand of collective thoughts that would lead me to success.

I am diving, I am searching, and I am patiently waiting for a response from the unknown. I am not afraid of anything but returning to the surface empty handed when I am currently sitting in my own bliss of complete solitude.